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image thanks to maya hayuk via cupcakes for breakfast

 

why is starting the hardest part? always. for me, it happens very late at night, very early in the morning, and whenever else it’s inconvenient– i become inspired, i write brilliant sentences in my head, and then i can’t get out of bed or i forgot a notebook, or i get distracted by instagram. i have literally been trying to get back into blogging since… my last blog post? three and a half months is a long time to be away from something that i want to be part of my routine so badly. i’m not sure what is stopping me from really dedicating time to something that i care about, except that perhaps i care about it for the wrong reasons.

i love blogs. i read a lot of blogs daily. i am so incredibly inspired by the women who write them (and one man! hey matt logelin, you’re inspiring too.) and as so many blog-readers probably are, a teensy bit jealous of the life that they portray. but that’s just it. it’s a portrayal. many of my favorite bloggers have been very honest about the struggle to be “transparent” on their blogs and to not just post the perfectly styled images, the most out-of-reach outfits, only the perfectly executed craft. and i truly appreciate that. as someone who’s crafts almost never go right the first time (who knew glue gun was so glue-y?) it’s a beautiful fresh perspective when i read that my favorite do-it-all-and-still-look-cute-blogger says she went to bed at 9pm on a friday night because she was so exhausted. hello! that’s me! and i don’t even have 2 businesses to run and 3 twitter accounts to tweet from and a blog to write (oh wait.) but that brings me (slowly, rambling) to my next point: have you ever heard the quote “comparison is the thief of joy”? well it’s lovely. and true. thank you teddy roosevelt.

so maybe my intentions weren’t perfect when i started this blog. i thought it would be sort of easy and fun to make beautiful posts like the pros with original content (wait, you don’t just want to look at my pinterest boards?). it’s not easy. it is fun, of course, and very rewarding, but why i ever thought it would be easy is unknown to me. after taking a little sabbatical if you will, i want to be back. i want to write again. and i even want to craft again, even though it’s a lot harder than it looks. i’ve been brainstorming lots of ideas and have fun, fresh posts on the way. i’m sorry for slacking, but i needed some time off to remember why i started this blog: to get a book deal and free clothes. just kidding, it was originally a way for me to do something, and start writing again, and stay in touch with friends and family. and maybe, maybe, down the road meet some of my favorite bloggers and thank them for inspiring me to start, even before i was really prepared.

so anyway, where have i been the past 3.5 months? well i’ll tell you. the fall is the loveliest time of year, mostly because of the crunchy leaves but also for the building excitement of blazers, excessive carbs, the color burgundy, and not having to ice my coffee. also the trio of holidays cannot be beat- my favorite beloved thanksgiving, christmas, and obviously my birthday.

early in october i took a spur of the moment trip to nantucket, my favorite place. as always, it was too short, but spending time with my sister is just the best. we really are brothers from another mother, except we’re sisters. and she’s hysterical.

then my mom came up to dc on a whim and it was the most fun ever! she stayed with my boyfriend and me and we had the best time shopping, cooking, tasting wine, and we even hosted a little get together where our moms met, successfully!

november brought jesse’s birthday (think brunch, pimms cups, a nap, dinner, and a movie. essentially the most perfect day in our lives.) and going to chicago for thanksgiving. chicago is my favorite city and i don’t even know why. the tall buildings (skyscrapers i believe those are called? i’m not sure, we’re not allowed to have them in dc), the river winding through the city, the magnificent mile, and those two people i love so much, my aunt and uncle. we had the most relaxing trip, discovered a fun bar (sable kitchen and bar in chicago) and i ate so.much.turkey. actually turkey is my least favorite part of the meal, it’s more like the vessel for which i can cram stuffing, mashed potatoes, gravy, and cranberry sauce (canned, it always must be canned) into my mouth. in one bite. but whatever, i applaud the turkey for taking on such an important role in my gluttony.

december was an absolute whirlwind. i actually should have blogged because i did more crafting than i’ve ever done in my life. i made all of our christmas tree ornaments, i made all of our party invites, and then i hibernated until my birthday. but seriously, this was the first christmas that jesse and i spent together in our own home so we naturally had to get a tree (a live one. come on.) and listen to christmas music nonstop. my birthday was one of the greatest days of the month and i’m so thankful for my family and friends who helped me celebrate another great year.  the day after my birthday was one of the worst days of the month due to over-consumption on said birthday and i apologize to my parents who had to witness me in that condition. finally, our christmas party, christmas eve and christmas were the three craziest days in a row of the whole year but also the greatest. we played a lot of games (including cards against humanity, which i don’t recommend playing with parents by the way), drank a lot of wine, and ate a lot of delicious food, and therefore it was my favorite three days. there is nothing i love more than games, food, and wine. 

so here we are in the new year. halfway through january. i’ve made some resolutions, which i’ll share (once i weed out the ones i’m failing at. just kidding, that’s cheating.) and i’m excited for the year to come. i’m excited to grow as a blogger, be a grateful friend, and take the scary first steps towards living the life i want to live. as always, i appreciate you reading (especially if you’re still reading, my goodness.) and your support, love, and feedback.

so tell me! 

what are you looking forward to in 2013?

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6 responses »

  1. I’m glad you’re back, and I love your writing. Did you notice that “you’re” and “your” are used correctly in my sentence?! Great post…..Stay inspired!!! Miss you, xoxo

  2. Hooray, she’s back! And what a great blog. Wow! 2013 brings a lot of hope and inspiration., Looking forward to seeing more jump start monday blogs! more time with family this year, and, working on building this new business. Love you lots! xxoo

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